Friday, November 27, 2009

Giving Thanks and other thoughts


Post-Thanksgiving by a full day, going on two, and I am still exhausted and somehow full. I never knew that Thanksgiving was so much work. I´ll give you a day by day account of our preparations.
Nov 9th: Our first meeting to talk about who we wanted to invite, when to have it, and what we wanted to make. Not much got done besides picking the day and a facebook event was made to see how many people were going to come.
Nov 23rd: we had our second official meeting to talk about food and what to buy. We decided to hold the dinner on the fourth floor tv room, for a more homely feel.
Nov 24th: I went shopping for food with Derek, Laura, Jills, and Birgir. We spent over an hour in Bonous and then another forty in Hagkaup. It was a successful trip besides the lack of pumpkin and rhubarb. Birgir´s trunk was so full I thought his car wouldn´t be able to move. I was disappointed that we couldn´t find pumpkin anywhere and when my friend Rebekka asked if we found everything I told her we couldn´t find pumpkin and luckily she had a half a pumpkin and she knew of a place close by that sells them! That put me in a good mood.
Nov 25th: After class I walked to this little organic foods place and got the last three baby pumpkins! I asked if they were going to get more tomorrow and he said that he ordered too many this time - so praise Jesus he did, or else our dinner may have been pumpkin-free. After my other class we started to bake. I prepared the pumpkin for pies and my pumpkin rolls. (Pumpkin is hard when you have to make it from scratch). Every kitchen was full of Americans cooking. It was great.
Nov 26th: The big day! Derek and I put the turkeys in around 11:30am and I started to cook stuffing after that. (after lunch five of us turned in our Icelandic Culture papers - yay for being done with one class already). Around 3pm every kitchen was in use until after midnight. Everyone really got into the Thanksgiving spirit. I could feel it all around me. I don´t even know how many dishes we made. Three tables full and enough to feed 48ish people plus leftovers still. People started to show up around 7 for dinner, but we weren´t ready. All I saw for a good hour was a whirlwind of food and chiefs finishing up their masterpieces. I don´t know how many times I ran up and down stairs, but it was totally worth every ounce of effort put in. The dinner was a success. I have never been so satisfied and content after completing a task before. Sitting with a view of each table and our quests eating the traditional American Thanksgiving meal we had worked SO HARD to prepare and a plate full of my own food, was a reward worth a million dollars. I couldn´t stop smiling, we had pulled it off. (if you know me at all you know how bad I am at planning parties - yes, this was a big accomplishment for me. ha). Everyone I talked to enjoyed the food and now want to celebrate Thanksgiving every year. I didn´t get to bed till after 1 am with all of the cleaning that had to be done, but I slept well. I will cherish this day for the rest of my life.
Nov 27th: I woke up full and to it snowing outside! What a great way to end Thanksgiving by bringing in the Christmas season :) All that was left was a little cleaning and moving the tables and chairs back to second floor. That morning/afternoon I spent outside with friends playing in the snow and on the ice. I made my first snow angel on the ice, it felt appropriate since I´m in Iceland. For dinner the cooks all got together to eat some leftovers. I know there is still food left. Can you say 100% true Thanksgiving? ha.

Amidst the Thanksgiving rush my life was slowly crumbling around me. I´m not a fan of bad news (giving or receiving) and when it comes out of no where it is so easy to close up. I guess you could say I am thankful that Thanksgiving was during this week so I´ve been able to distract myself from thinking about life. But today I will allow myself to slow down and examine life. At the moment I have more questions then answers. Like will it now be a tradition for my Thanksgiving week to be full of worry and confusion? Because two years in a row is enough for my pessimistic personality to place these events in connection with each other. There are just too many similarities for my mind to not come to that conclusion. Why, why, why? Why do my life lessons come through suffering? Can´t I learn the easy way for once? The ironic thing is I have been praying for my life to be changed here, to be broken, to experience God in a new way. Watch out for what you pray for. For over a month I have been going to a bible study at the Garman´s house and we have been going through 1 Peter. A perfect book about the suffering that happens in the world because we live in sin-filled world. Suffering is going to come no matter what, what really matters is where we place our faith, our trust, our hope. Nothing happens without a reason. I met the Garman´s because God knew I´d need to hear the truth of 1 Peter before and after last Tuesday. I have friends here that care and listen because God knew I´d need human comfort in Iceland. I may be back to where I was one year ago with different circumstances. But its a place where I have to fully rely on God with each breath I take, I wouldn´t be able to get out of bed without his strength. That´s a place of beauty, it really is. Beautifully broken.

Now I have a request of you friends. Please pray for my family (and me while you are at it). This is a crack in the road, a gap in the bridge, or the building blocks of a beautiful castle. I´m willing to share the details, I just don´t feel the need to vent details to the blog world. I always welcome ears to hear and a hug (even if its via the Internet). Bless friends.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

feelings

Shock
Numb
This isn´t happening.
No
Can´t be.
Not now.
We were done with hardships.

I lied.
I don´t want to shine.
take it back.

This cycle
needs to end.
one time was enough.
the past
is pulled back
too much to focus on.

I lied
I don´t want to shine
take it back.

Take it back
take it back
for another time.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

darkening days

Iceland is a northern country. In fact the most northern part of Iceland almost touches the Arctic circle (so I've heard). One would assume with that fact that Iceland is cold. I haven't had a problem with the cold, it isn't too different from Minnesota most days. The thing I am shocked about each day is the shortening day light. Yesterday I spent the afternoon in the library working on my Icelandic Culture paper, I wasn't paying attention to the time and when I walked out of the library I saw the sun setting. I was taken aback. How long HAD I been in there? My watch read 4:35. yep, in the afternoon. Oh Iceland. The sun started to rise at 9:40 this morning. So I got to watch it slowly come up over Reykjavik as I walked to the post office to mail a very special person a package.

Also on my walk I saw some men setting up a big Christmas tree in one of the center squares. I am very excited to see this city all lit up with Christmas lights. Supposedly people go all out. (After all, if there is only going to be a few hours of sunlight, you need to provide people with artificial lights because life goes on with or without light in the sky).

I wish I could upload a picture I took this morning, but I'm on a library computer. My dead baby is now with a friend's brother-in-law for some life revival. This week hasn't been as hard for me being without my computer. I feel disconnected to my family and friends back home, but I'm getting a lot done and I even started to knit! That is right friends, I have joined the Icelandic "cult" of knitting. :) Luckily Icelandic wool is cheep (it's the only thing that is. ha).

Thanksgiving is coming up and the North Americans (we Americans decided to allow the Canadians to help out) are making a massive dinner for the international students and our Icelandic buddies. Excitement does not even cover my emotions. Bless bless.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

undignified

story time about real life:

Friday afternoon I decided to be a good citizen (well, technically resident)and take out the recycling. For some reason Icelanders are not too concerned about their environment and keeping it healthy. That being said we (the international students) have to take our own recycling to a place that does recycle. There was only two bags but I decided to take Charlize and the shopping cart someone is "borrowing" in our dorm to help with my adventure. We walked through campus with a loud orange shopping cart and two garbage bags. I wish I could read minds, because we got a lot of weird looks from people. My favorite was when a professor type looking lady walked by us and didn't even make eye contact! Oh people are funny little beings. Why don't we want to make eye contact with people who are doing things out of the ordinary? It's not like we had bodies in our bags. ha. It was a very enjoyable afternoon. I should do more random things, it keeps life interesting. Honestly, I had such a joy in my step throughout our recycling adventure.

do something random today and tell me about it please. Bless.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

perfection

I went on a run today. I haven´t ran since early August. It was life changing. I thought you´d like to know that.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

before civilization.

okay, so I guess my title is a bit over dramatic. But I am me and I have always been a little bit over dramatic, so the title stays.

I wish I had happy news for my blog readers about my laptop, but I don't. I am still laptopless, but I am blessed with friends who let me use their computers during the moments they are not. I'll be honest, not having a computer was great the first three days. I got all of my homework done for the week and even some fun reading. Now six days into my new life I feel my life slowly fading away. It is so sad how dependent I am on my computer, its my "go to" companion whenever I am bored, lonely, and even happy. It is my way of communication with the world outside Iceland, and it has my class notes on it...

But I have done some fun things besides pester my computer savvy friends to work on my laptop. Like climbing Tröllakirkja, a 939m high mountain that kicked my butt. The morning was beautiful and so was the mountain, but as the afternoon continued the clouds started to roll in and soon we were in the clouds. Ice covered the rocks and moss making it difficult to walk. I can sum up this day in two words: Epic Iceland. Everything you'd think of when you hear Iceland was there on this hike. When we got to the top everyone was frozen and we couldn't see 40m down.

I was blessed greatly by American Style on Sunday night. After church I went out to eat with Charlize and our two new Icelandic friends Johanna and Dagny and that night American Style was offering a free meal to the youngest person if you were in a group of four. Thank You God for that gift. I really needed that. I have noticed that during times of "suffering" (yes, I am suffering without my computer) it is important for me to acknowledge the blessings in life, even the small ones.

I'm not going to go into great detail about life before the death of bella or during because now I have more stories to share when I get home :) My time is coming to the close and finals are a few weeks away! I am going to start writing my Icelandic Culture paper tomorrow (thanks to a friend who is letting me borrow their computer, I don't have to use the nasty library computers.) Once that is done all I have is studying. ahhhh... I don't want this semester to end.

"All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever" 1 Peter 1: 24-25. (Danielle Translation: All computers are like ice cream, and their files are like cookies. The computer melts and the files are eaten. good thing my bible isn't on my computer. ha) Bless friends.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

sad news

Unfortunately my computer decided to die on me yesterday. I spent an hour talking to dell and they couldn´t fix it. Luckily a friend here said he´d try. But don´t expect a real post from me until its fixed. I am horrible at writing on other computers because I like to take my time.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

These Frosty Days



I went on another hiking trip on Sunday. This time our goal was Esja, which is the mountain that over looks Reykjavik. I have taken many pictures of it and I was excited to finally be on top of it. Our afternoon adventure turned into a long exciting one because we missed the first bus which caused us to miss the next one, but we did succeed in making it to the top (despite the misdirection we got from a local while hiking) before the sun had fully set. My body now is tired from working so hard. Esja was harder (to me) it felt like a never ending cross country meet. A joy and a burden. I knew I would finish (if there was enough day light to get down) but the finish line seemed to never be in sight.

The last few days here have been AMAZING weather wise (Yes, I am very Minnesotan to mention the weather – again). The frost has started to collect on the grass, trees, windows, and my breath is visible. I get chills of joy just thinking about it. Yesterday after classes Maggie and I ventured downtown to Hallgrimskirkja (a church I have also taken multiple pictures of) and went up to the top of the steeple. The view of Reykjavik from there was spectacular! The buildings were dotted about the city with their red and green roofs and the ocean was so close. There are days that I completely forget that I am on an Island, but yesterday I was reminded of that beautiful fact.

Also yesterday Charlize and I went to a bible study of University students (Icelandic and exchange). I was blown away by a few facts: they deal with the same struggles I do, they know the same worship songs I do, and they enjoy Apples to Apples! People in this world really aren’t that different once you get to know them, even if they grew up in another country. Again meeting all of these amazing people has brought a wave of sadness because I don’t want to leave after making new friends. These two months are going to fly by, and I know I should be thankful that I finally did meet some Christian students and enjoy each day I have here with them.

Homework calls me. Good thing today is a gloomy day because that means I will actually get things done!